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I recently had to install windows for a research project and the fact the “latest version” i downloaded moments before needed to update while installing and then again needed to update twice after it was installed pissed me off way more than it should.

Also gotta love that my laptop can go 5+hrs on a charge with arch and xfce but lasts less than 2hrs on windows.

Start talking about something and get so lost on tangents trying to explain all the precursory information they need to understand that original thing I haven’t explained yet that I’m now debating something entirely unrelated and have forgotten the original point I’m trying to make.

Bonus points if I end up losing my train of thought during one of the tangents and now don’t even know what I said two seconds ago and have still forgotten the original point I was trying to make.

Also not being able to do simple things I plan/need to do, like laundry or writing an email, but then spend 4hrs straight building something incredibly complex from scratch just to test a random theory I had that has no other usefulness.

Yes, remember it is totally immoral to pirate things from corporations who actively make everything worse for everyone.

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I recently made a decision to transfer colleges in order to save my mental health. This meant I’d have to take on a few student loans, but with FAFSA it still felt manageable, and it has significantly improved my life.

However, If financial assistance from the government drops, the chances I will be able to afford school long enough to graduate drop significantly too.

I’m not super jazzed about that; though, I still think the transfer was worth it.

Oh yeah, also, I just recently got medicated for ADHD and it’s what’s let me start to pull my life together, but adderall might get banned so… rip me.

Maybe I’ll take up smoking lol. I mean that as a joke, but what a world when clinically safe, prescribed meds might get banned but literal cancer causing, heavy metal filled, habit forming drugs are going to be legal forever…

Cheers mates, couldn’t have asked for a better seat to watch the final fall of America and possibly the rest of the world. Good luck to all of you who’ll last longer than me.

Mechanical Engineering. Firstly because I am already studying it, but it’s also a super broad field, so if I’m an expert in all of it, I’ve just become an expert in like a dozen different fields.

Aerospace, biomedical, materials science, robotics, mechatronics, fluid dynamics, dynamic systems & controls, nuclear energy and all the other energy production types like fusion, even some branches in quantum computing and weird physics like Alcubierre drives.

Sure maybe it’s limited to the extent of where those fields are now, but I basically just became an expert in all of human technology.

If it wasn’t clear, I’m well aware of the unlikelihood of the situation. But what’s the harm in believing such? I mean it’s not like either of them is going to come back from the dead and say: “Actually, we argued about the internal weight distribution from astronaut motion, how it would effect the natural frequency of the capsule, and if that effect would be significant enough to need accounting for, not racism.”

Pi as in math like Euler’s identity, cannot be changed. It arises from the definition of e and imaginary numbers, both of which arise from the natural numbers which arise directly from axioms.

Pi as in the ratio of a circle’s circumference to its diameter, however, could be changed, in which case you would change the fundamental geometry of space. This would be neither hyperbolic nor spherical space because those spaces still use the mathematical pi for determining angles (along with hyperbolic trig functions of course).

The geometry would likely be much closer to Chebyshev or Taxicab space since the ratio of circumference to diameter in those spaces is 4 (I think…). Because of this, I suspect that using a distance function like in Chebyshev or Manhattan but with a triangular grid instead of a square one would yield this exact situation where geometric pi=3. This would be confusing as hell but now I’m curious and have coincidentally already started exploring the concept of metric spaces so I’ll look into it. Though I’ll probably get distracted and forget…

Edit: Found it, Chebyshev distance on hexagonal grid would give a circumference/diameter ratio of 3. So a metric space with a distance function like that is the geometry you want.

Fun fact, my grandfather was a leading engineer on the Saturn V and other aerospace projects, and according to my dad he apparently got into arguments with Von Braun. Considering the line of work and knowing some of my grandfather’s written down arguments from that time, it’s likely these arguments were more about random physics than anything else, but I like to think it was about von Braun being a Nazi piece of shit.

I do know my grandparents were very against segregation to the chagrin of their neighbors, so it’s not entirely unlikely right?

This is the second best benefit of my meds. I can keep lists now and actually just do things, so if I feel this way I just start making a list of all the major to-do things I can think of and a list of all the stuff I kind of feel like I should do. Just putting it into a list helps because I then feel more confident I know what needs to get done. Plus I can break down the big things into smaller steps now which is useful.

I definitely tried doing this kind of stuff before getting medicated but it didn’t work. Gotta love how every piece of advice for dealing with ADHD shit only is an option if you don’t have ADHD to begin with.

I mean I’d definitely be curious to try it, but I’m not the biggest fan of eggs to begin with, and it’s likely these would be useful for recipes that normally call for multiple eggs rather than like an egg on toast and what not.

However, I’d like to note that if humans are laying eggs at like the rate chickens lay eggs, I guarantee you people would be eating them and it wouldn’t be as weird as it is from our current perspective. If half the population is laying one egg a day—with most being unfertilized—what the fuck are we going to do with all these eggs?

The most efficient option is probably for the producer to eat the egg because that’s a ton of nutrients you just lost for no reason. But would you want to eat the same food every day? Probably not, even if it is mixed with other things. If you could sell it and buy food you actually wanted, that’s probably the better option.

If we assume this kind of laying daily laying is commonplace, certain human cultures probably would already have traditional meals using human eggs because again if half the people in your society are laying like a kilo of viable nutrients and you just let them go to waste, that’s not really evolutionarily advantageous. Though, I should note most likely humans wouldn’t lay eggs this frequently because I think that might be a result of domestication. Anyway it would be kind of interesting to have to have artifacts that are like made of human egg shells. People might keep fragments of their children’s hatching shells which would be kind of odd.

Also laying, even if infrequent, would be fucking annoying and I’d imagine birth control pills that just stop you from laying eggs would be very widely used. I can also imagine influencers marketing their eggs to fans a la gamer girl bath water which is not a thought I wanted to have today so thanks for that. Oh also people saying they can tell if someone is a virgin or a slut (the only two categories for these idiotic comparisons) by how their eggs look would probably be a thing because people are stupid like that already. Though hey Easter egg painting could be fun with huge eggs you can actually like paint on.

Anyway, to the people who mentioned this making more people uncomfortable eating other animals eggs, I disagree.

If laying eggs happens frequently and was a thing that had been happening for a while, I’d assume many people would not find it odd to eat the eggs, especially in the like autocannibalism way. And if it was commonplace to eat human eggs, people would probably be less averse to eating other animals eggs not more disgusted by it.

Technically this is Octal since each digit (continuous symbol) has 8 possible states before you reach the next digit. 🤓

It’s the start of the semester, and this is me. Unfortunately I’m feeling it even while on my meds :( I think I’ve become tolerant to them.

Texas sized 10-4 good buddy

MOND is my personal favorite way to avoid dark matter.

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100% of murdering lunatics breathe air.

Do with that what you will.

Not sure about lust specifically though I suppose it’s possible to hyperfocus on it.

However, getting off is definitely something ADHD people can feel the urge to self medicate with. It is pretty strong stimulation, activating both dopaminergic and adrenal pathways (I think) which are the two that ADHD meds try to trigger to alleviate symptoms.

Furthermore, it helps with those under-stimulation days because it is stimulation, but can also help with overstimulation days because sex activates both the sympathetic AND parasympathetic nervous system. (it acts as both an upper and a downer) So it helps you relax and feel less stressed/irritable.

Sidenote: Nicotine is one of the only drugs that activates both pathways like this and surprise surprise it’s also something I’ve heard several ADHD people use to self medicate with or that they would use to help them focus before they realized they had ADHD.

Imagine someone says something rude you want to reply to but don’t/can’t. This is annoying but normally you just move on. Sure maybe you’ll think about it a little while later or maybe while in the shower later that day or maybe it will come back you randomly while laying in bed sometime in the future. Still normal (I think…) and pretty manageable.

However, with the right (or wrong) kind of neurodivergence, some days it isn’t possible to let go. Even the slightest annoyance will invade your focus the entire rest of the day. You can’t do anything because you’re just pissed about that thing, or pissed that you’re still thinking about that dumb thing for no reason and can’t get it out of your head. You get mad at being mad. Anger spiral ensues.

Rage wells within you as your frustration rises because you’re trying to focus on other things and this annoyance isn’t worth your time, but you can’t stop because you’re not in control. It’s like a song stuck in your head but even harder to get rid of.

If you’re like me, self destructive fantasies play in your mind to relieve the feeling. This does work but it takes time. Once the anger spiral is gone you feel dumb because like why the fuck did I just spend four fucking hours imagining global conquest because I tripped over my words answering a question in lecture this morning?

Anyway I think this is kind of related to hyper focus. Basically your mind decides—without and/or against your will—to focus on something that angers you all day. You feel the desire to do something about it, but you can’t, and you can’t even really stop focusing on it no matter what you try, so you just get more mad.

Unfortunately it often happens when I’m stressed to begin with because I have tasks I need to get done, but then that stress just feeds the fire. Meditation might be helpful but the most effective option I’ve found is to put on phonk or metal or vocaloid songs that are very fast and loud or violent then imagine acting on my anger till I’ve exhausted all the rage. Once it feels boring to stay mad, I can get back to doing my tasks. Again, this takes time and is probably not the healthiest way to cope, but it works for me so maybe it’ll work for other ADHD peeps who want a solution.