[staring at the apocryphon of john with dead & tired eyes] the material world is of the archons and anybody in the apparatus of worldly power either works for or is possessed by someone who is in their court.

i’m trans and probably of-stock but i gotta say i’m a chaotic petty meanie who absolutely wants to be in the ear of people with my opinions and i am not loyal to a damn thing except what i think is good so

bring back eunuch advisors but if i tell you your shit is wack and you keep doing it just assume the knife is coming.

one of the best games ever made

i buddy up with evil out of like, what, spite? nah, there are other roads but maybe this satan guy has some good points that could win in the marketplace of ideas…

i would need to know what Satan himself is about tbqh but i wouldn’t rule this out either.

they’re gonna bring back feudal society but with the masses bound to corporate entities, arent they?

the fascism of the 21st century is being owned by a corporate lord and living on your work site isnt it?

There’s a masculine emotional undercurrent to the godfather that i could relate to when i was a teenager in puberty but as a trans woman just feels alien and clownish to me

like the truth of that movie is somewhere in the unresolved male ego and the compensation thereof and i can’t vibe on it anymore.

Do you think so? I think what we are internally isn’t fully dependent on memory and reference, there is some element of us that just is, for at least as long as we’re alive. Behind your eyes and resting within your interior is a spark of something that has existed continuously since you were born, that little “I” of awareness may never change.

It’s always you imo. You can go through mk ultra style brainwashing, lose your sense of identity, find yourself under a new name and with new interests, but between who you were and who you are, are enough commonalities that I would dispute the notion we’re just electrical signals in wet gooey meat endlessly referencing the past to navigate the present and anticipate the future - but that’s me.

i think these questions are really uninteresting if you’re gonna insist on being purely rational materialist about it, but i think it gets more interesting when you’re willing to play with what reality might be a little more. There are religious motifs that repeat in many cultures about the eternal reocurrence. This idea that earth is made and destroyed in countless infinite, repeating cycles.

What if you and I have been going at this for a while?

But if you want the answers science can give right now, probably not

It’s weird to only be involved exoterically on this site i guess is one way to put it? I really don’t wade into drama threads, i don’t exist in the deeper social network here. I just browse the pages, and the closest thing to drama I indulge in is like, when someone from a lemmy instance with liberal brain rot wades in and demands group humiliation from us.

I can tell it’s impacting the user base, and the activity level, and I do want to ask the mods what’s going on in the back end? Because the number of drama bombs going off behind the scenes that leaks out into the instance as a whole is probably beyond what’s necessary - this shouldn’t be happening like this y’all.

Like, to me an ideal mod-admin cadre exists to facilitate discussion inside some parameters, like a set of rules and conventions for behavior. Hexbear is leftist, and has a sizeable contingent of serious leftists, so I understand that comes with some of the tensions these spaces have in real life, and is prone to wrecking and power tripping and all that stuff - I think leftists expect some of that.

But it’s happening an awful lot, and it’s fucking things up - so structurally something should probably change, I just can’t comment on specifics. I am just certain that unity of intention and purpose, and being even handed and consistent with enforcement does prevent a lot of what’s happening. The fat-phobia stuff should not be happening, and it didn’t need to go this far. I am transfemme and I have traumatic history with cis men and toxic masculinity - i struggle to be nice about men to be very delicate about it - but some of what flies here is just toxic to a healthy community in that regard. I say that with the hopeful understanding that as a transfemme woman I really do not want any cis men coddled over their identity and perceived oppression, but it still gets kinda wack here in that regard.

If this site wants to go that direction, i even think that would be fine, but consistency and, again, not letting drama be aired like, on the main page, is important because it’s the kind of drama that makes people nope out, and regardless of merit, that shit kills the site, and i don’t think hexbear deserves that as a place or community.

I’m gonna try to limit this post to all I say on this. I generally like the moderation and administration here - but something is clearly wrong, and some kind of overhaul in hierarchy, vetting, and autonomy needs to be reviewed.

Paulson & Grease Gum My Balls

my mom is pretty much fine. She hates politics and has enough sense to understand the news cycles exist to give people like her panic attacks, and she fucking hates donald trump and maga people and their hatreds with an intensity.

But my dad is down a Q rabbit hole, a maga guy, and some of it’s pretty sad. He’s getting fed stuff by the algorithm that’s designed to prey on his insecurities and his pathologies. He’s been abusing stimulants for years now, and that has caused him to lose almost all of his teeth. So of course he believes in a theory of medicine that lets you regrow teeth with a mild electrical current???

And like, we still talk - if i can keep him in a narrow range of his para politics interests we can shit on israel together, we can discuss a lot together. He gets into fights with people who agree with him more politically over me, because i’m trans? He’s weird. He puts his family first and I believe that man would take a bullet for me, but he supports a ton of shit that’s positioned against me, and is in total denial about that fact.

He’s mentally ill and the algorithmically delivered content is making him worse. It’s really depressing, and it’s making him burn a lot of bridges in a really sad way.

I don’t go around discoursing about video games, but if I was gonna make a Ciri game, I wouldn’t make her a fuckin’ witcher.

She can hop dimensions and teleport, for fucks sake there’s a much more interesting story to be had than what the trailer indicates they’re doing.

Really am not thrilled by this, but I’m still gonna play this slop and this is genuinely me being a weirdo about the lore and knowing what kind of potential her character has - “witcher” is the most boring thing they could’ve done.

But dont lump me in with the g*mers i dont care that much and i still adore ciri lol

i’m aware, it’s a favored ending of mine, i just think it’s a bad change/lore advancement, because Ciri is way more interesting than a witcher in terms of potential and kit

a worldhopping battle wizard feels more like what they should be doing if they’re gonna do Ciri

i like the idea of being able to play a lady instead of Gruff Autistic Himbo Man but this sucks. ciri isn’t a witcher, that trailer felt like it was trying to punch at the weight of the witcher 3 trailers but never quite hits

ugh

this is just an excuse for having euthanasia drugs moving in large quantities into the area isnt it

addiction is a motherfucker; once you’re trained, and the initial training can be completely accidental or out of your hands in a tangible way, sobriety is something that requires discipline to maintain, the reward parts of your brain want more. ex smokers want the anxiety relief, alcoholics want to exist in that state because they feel more themselves in it now. It’s especially hard if your addiction is socially acceptable. Alcoholics and nicotine addicts have to stare at their addictions every time they shop, go to a gas station, and in quite a lot of social situations. and quite often the brain, especially for the first few years, loves to invent reasons to relapse on sight/perception of the favored drug use, and logic and “good sense” are present all the way up to the point of use, telling you not to and it’s happening anyway because addictions circumvent the rational. It’s seriously just pure will for a while, and most people just do not have that in sufficient quantity.

the specific rationale will be different for everyone with the problem, but “taking the edge off” is implicate in the problem; their brain is screeching that they’re not okay, not normal, and [thing] would fix it. That’s all it is. It’s sad. It really sucks to be around addicts of any type who are not in control, but… I really don’t think of it as excuse - that person sincerely believes they need it and their brain is fully complicit in an unconscious and overpowering way.

aww :3 sincerely love you too

columbo isn’t a real cop and i refuse to feel guilt over liking him

someone made some tumblr lore where columbo is a fae trickster, shows up on the scene already knowing who did it, playing a game of bringing the material world up to speed to clown somebody. The cops don’t remember who he is, the badge isn’t real, when the murder is solved nobody in the precinct even remembers a detective columbo

NOT A REAL COP.

i had a dream a few years ago where i lived in a world where a shitty rotten government let the crypto bros in and i remember waking up thinking it was so stupid in the exact way stuff-that-actually-happens was stupid.

Lots of people lose their ass and your paychecks just come in as a variable sum that is usually worth a bit less than what was promised, otherwise some people recover and life mostly goes on, slightly worse, with Feds on the blockchain monitoring your Good Citizen purchases. i think the prospect kinda sucks and i’m horrified that it might actually happen now.