just living, but sometimes it feels reality is rawdogging me though. But that’s just life.

Do you consider naturally occuring hormones to be drugs?

I was about to say “I’m drug free!” But then I read your first three listed drugs and was like fuck, I forgot that weed, alcohol, and caffeine were drugs lmao. They’re just legal.

Weed and alcohol is very rare for me, maybe once or twice a month, but I literally depend on caffeine as an antidepressant.

I should probably see a therapist.

My baseline for the day is five

Yeah, going quite well. I like the clarity of mind. A few years ago, I once took some painkillers and even three weeks later, my mind still felt hazy at times, like I couldn’t concentrate fully. Not worth it, at all.

I both love it and hate it. I’m proud of going through it all without substances and yet I often find myself hating life, and I have a hard time waking up. So, yeah. That’s how.

You have to define “drug” much more specifically because many compounds that our bodies produce are also medical treatments.

…does tea count? Or sugar? Jerking off and video games are enough for me.

My only real problem now seems to be finding a relationship, so life’s great.

I also have zero interest in those drugs though. Coffee tasted bitter. Alcohol tastes bad, and when I got tipsy once I just felt mild inconvenience walking, I think. Smoking smells bad. Never saw weed with my own eyes. A friend had me try yerba mate telling me it’d give me a kick like coffee, especially if I never tried it, but I just didn’t feel anything special.

Dang, no caffeine? You’re strict. I would like to think I don’t need caffeine, I just like the ritual of drinking coffee and when I don’t I feel slightly more pure, not that that helps me like myself anymore lol